The Decition of my LIFE

I keep wanna be hard working...but y i can't...i keep on falsing my self but my heart still is playing...not play..it's lazy....at home also dunno wanna play wad...my mind say go study,but...my heart dun let my hands and leg to move...it keep saying no..it says..dun go...relax...but my mind say that it's wasting my time....WASTEING TIME IS NO GOOD!!!! but y i still wanna do that???i dunno!!!!!

My mom say if i work hard later Universiti go Malaya Universiti no nid pay....and if i wanna go ther ...it start from a UPSR...if my UPSR good...i go goood class in "zhong shue" but...the hard decition tht i can;t make is go which 1...my father say DU is good wan me go there....my mommy say actua;;y aptu samat is oso good 1 if u go good class....i say DJ cause very fang bian mah....haiz... dunno go wer....go which school is a very big decition of my life....cause it can change many things.....exspeacially frens there...good or no good???can i control my self when i'm big???NOW i already can't u say how when i was big!!!???

My fren say i very li hai 1 nho nid study also can get A...but that's just the basic i get from std1-2...from 3 onwards..i become lazy..dunno y....wanna change it but i dunno how...help.................cryin....can anybody tell me how to control my heart with my mind?They are enemies...but it's also the king and queen of my body...how when can they listen to each other ???