Ahh....Depressed /-\

How come...I should be happy....having a new thing...a new expensive thing....they care u so much and bought u the most expensive the most gud 1 the perfect 1 for you...why aren't you happy!? ugh....how come be so depressed....like juz wasted something like i think......i don't need it.....be4 u have it u want it...after u had it i dun wan it... i know... i can't leave it there like a rubbish.... so sad...... how come i can pretend i'm so happy having it? i'm not happy at all......why? see-ing u both in such happy mayb a fake 1 on ur face....i know it's very expensive and i din't say i wanted tht i said the cheap 1 so tht u all could ..ugh....... why? if i'm not happy...... why did i wanted it D' last time? ahh weird feelings' coming into my heart...... felt damn depressed....... arhh useless .... everything is useless.....u juz wanted it be4 u get it so keen of having it but after tht...... wad!? u dun wan it!? ahhrg i can't forgive my self for asking my mom for tht...... if nid 2 travel back 2 time mayb till when i'm std4..... tht time u say i'm too small...... then u call me 2 wait..... till when i'm std5 u bought a thing tht's almost simmilar 2 tht then i was so happy.. but after tht both of my bros came wanting tht keep on "qiang" wif me ......i felt so sad...... then u bought a new 1 now it's the actual thing tht i wanted 4 so long but do u know my feeling when see-ing u signing the contract? i was like i wanna say i dun wan it now.... it's enough....... but i juz can't open my mouth cuz i know i'll "hou hui" when i got back home but now..... i bought it...... i felt more "hou hui".......... why?......ahh no reason.... i'm a weird 1 i know.....am i tht weird till some1 bought me the thing i wanted for years still so sad!? every1 sure very happy......... tht thing make my bros jealous now.....ugh...... i can't believe myself............why!? why!? why!?..........i love u for tht but mom..... i won't wish 4 more from now on i know the feeling le....i won't take so much hope on a single thing....... and i won't ask for so many and wait till u give me 1 >m< And i would stop crying now........i love u...
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